Confused

I chose as I found it the lightest to be lifted
The heaviest it turned
Since then my heart and mind drifted

The heart had loved
Had seen colours of joys
Had flourished some memories
And secretly stored some mysteries

The mind used to tell
Glee is an illusion
The colours are day's fusion
None of them would last when it's night
All glitters land up to pain and plight

I won from my heart but never over my mind
Very confusing the words I throw here
And so confused am I
I write something unclear
To be cleared by you
And let you ponder on the questions
Often which in everyone's mind brew
With time which grew up to be childish and funny
The feelings which once had made you set off on life's journey.
And those which are still knowingly due