Confused

I chose as I found it the lightest to be lifted
The heaviest it turned
Since then my heart and mind drifted

The heart had loved
Had seen colours of joys
Had flourished some memories
And secretly stored some mysteries

The mind used to tell
Glee is an illusion
The colours are day's fusion
None of them would last when it's night
All glitters land up to pain and plight

I won from my heart but never over my mind
Very confusing the words I throw here
And so confused am I
I write something unclear
To be cleared by you
And let you ponder on the questions
Often which in everyone's mind brew
With time which grew up to be childish and funny
The feelings which once had made you set off on life's journey.
And those which are still knowingly due

The SHE

I have learned to handle the fires
How not to burn in the worldly desires
I have seen how calm the oceans are
Also, how deep below they are at war
I have been to places far from reach
Just to search the one
Who could take me from "I" to "We"

Yes, I have won 
From the volcanoes
Yes, I have fought 
With the rhinos
Yes, it's true that I don't fear
Yes, you have heard right
I have with me the whole sphere
Still I set to search for the one
With whom I can loose
And call her the One

I got many on my way to the shores
All had the beauty but non had those roars
Whose echo can calm my blazing mind
Who carries the thunder in her eyes
Who has the power to curb on my evil lights
And a will to take on my will's height

For when I will have her
Then only I could claim
To have won every side
I could then, call myself Alexander the Great
When I will see myself sinking down in her insidious eyes

Wrong

The start was wrong
The end was blunder
Amid was I
Fighting with the thunders

The thunders I made to fight with the sky
The thunders about which I believed were mine
But what I missed
Were the thoughts that thunders
Only roar and belong to the sky
 And how could they live at a shore
Where only truth reside

It wasn't their fault
That they hit me
What else could the thunders have done
When from ground
I asked them to be with me

When has the storm
Left the place it was formed
When has the waves not destroyed the shores
From where all were for its beauty profound
Danger of river 
Is most on those relying on banks
And when the building falls
All those inside
Are the first dying clans

Then how could I had expected
Destruction not to hit me
Instead letting me go
For the closest to it
Was me; admiring the days
There were before

The Mermaid

The water beneath my eyes
The water wherever I fly
The water even covering the sky
Finding you, amid was I
I brought a life
In the world where all die
It was me who was responsible
For your each and every cry
I still can see
My hands in yours
I still can feel
Slowing of your breath
And water submerging in your pores
I tried you to fit
In a world belonging to me
I asked you to swim
Despite knowing, you are made to conquer the greens
Now I think
Wherever were we
We were WE
Each in their own way
Happy together

That what had made us
Birds of same feather
But no more now
Are my thoughts of use
My thoughts which were
So untruely true
When I wake up with the rays of reality
I have no more clue
Of why I pulled
You in this blue!
Blues of my blue world
Have Turned into red
And now the red, are only left in my blues

I still but can't believe
How so cruel can be I
When I see
Skull to be yours, 
And the mermaid am I

Two Minutes

They talk about the time
I got from them
Never do they talk
About those two minutes

Two minutes which I had asked
For our life to be better
Two minutes which I had thought
I deserve to be mine forever
Two minutes which I wanted
Only I and she
Two minutes for which
I planned all the weeks


Two minutes I thought
Of getting when needed
Two minutes I thought
Will be mine after I pleeded
Two minutes which once upon a time

Used to be mine
Two minutes which lost
Its shine with the time
Two minutes, being merely only two minutes
Neither demanded a day, nor a month
Never even asked for a year
All I wanted were the two minutes
When we can be near without any fear

They talk about the time
I got in return
Of the minutes I asked from them
What they don't get
Is that those two minutes
Would now never return
And neither would
The talks which we could have had then.

The Girl I wish

The girl I wish
I wish was here

My untrue thoughts in my eyes
Fading my vision
For the girl I wish
I wish my view was clear

When I see myself holding back
I regret of the then fear
For talking to the girl I wish
I wish, could have fought my fear

Her soul as pure as music
And I, the creator of sins
So I let go the girl I wish
I wish, could have been able to destroy my created sphere

And so I remember
The girl I wish
The girl who turned up
And the opportunity, I missed
Because I messed
Within my thoughts
For the girl I wish
I wish was here.

Fear & Wish

Being lonely in graveyard
I fear & wish, if I could have had
Those hands while I was travelling
Which has now held me high
When I am lying
To travel, One for the last time
To be seen, One for the last time

These thoughts now hold no virtue

As the time is gone
So am I
And so is the moment
Which could have
Held us tight
But now, I have been
Held by the land
Caught by the fire
Traveled in those mighty waves
And stopped somewhere by the sands

Still, I see!
Glimpse of those memories which were never created
In the shades of those trees which we should have planted
However, As I said
These thoughts now hold no virtue
But still, in the lonely graveyard
I fear and wish
For the things I could have had.

Hate of Love

There are no hands

To wipe my tears

Neither ever I felt like wiping them

I let it flow

I let it make things slow

I let myself flow

Like a boat in the river

River of tears

Tears of soreness

Soreness of ignorance 

Ignorance of hatred

And hatred, of whom I loved.

Although all I said till now was true

But all I heard was lie

Betrayal is what I felt

And illusion is what I saw

Above all, it was fire which made me glow

And glow of that fire

Burnt me from within

Slowly but fully

Unknowingly yet intentionally

I thought it was me flying high

But they were my ashes

I thought it was me who was in fame

But they were my past's glasses

Which made people's visual a bit clearer

And faded my vision to see all my dearer

I thought it was me

Me and only me

But the time showed

It was nothing but just an instant glee

And all I am now left with

Is to flow

Flow in a river

River of tears

Tears of soreness

Soreness of ignorance 

Ignorance of hatred

And hatred, of whom I loved.

Red Rose

Don’t give me rose

And ever if you give

Ensure, that it remains red forever

I have lived in hardship

I have worshiped and been worshiped

I have seen that only glory can bury or conquer them

Those which are called

Guilts & sins

And those which are needed

To convert a defeat into win

All I learnt through these years are worldly affairs

And so, I say

Don’t give me rose

And ever if you give

Ensure, that it remains red forever

I have seen people leaving me

I have seen people begging me

I have seen how

Success and failure

Make them own and disown me

With all I have seen

I, no longer have interest in those blues

And so, I say

Don’t give me rose

And ever if you give

Please ensure, that it remains red forever

It’s not that I never lifted them

It’s not that I never gifted them

I also sometimes held them with truth

I also, sometimes sung the rhythmic blues

But all I  got in return

Were tears and pain

And I was always left alone

In the unholy rain

And so, I say

Dear, don’t give me rose

And if ever you give

Please ensure, that it remains red forever.

Forbidden legendary

I died for the day

I died for the nights

I died for the time

Which could have been mine

I died for your words

Your talks and your spurs

I died for the rain

Which you could have made

I died for the light

In the brightest day time

I died for the tears

I wanted to clear

I died for a hand

On my back to be my support sign

I died while I lived

In the graves of my miserable deeds

I died because I loved

A soul with the most imperfect heart

I died on my ways

To the victory for heaven's clay

I died because of my trust

Which gave me breath only to be trussed

Through the most imaginary way

One can see for the doomsday

I died because I wished 

For those who wanted me as per their wills

I died because of my vision

Of seeing lights through the dark woods

I died because I wished

To live for those who filled my life with mist

I let the sun to be set before dusk

And left a legendary

Of sins one should forbid must.

SIN

The winter was around

The snow was falling

Clouds occupied the day and so

People forgot how much heat the sun has

The lion was resting

Was sleeping in his den

The hunters so visiting

Forgot the danger from lion they can have

The rivers drying up

Flowing steadily

In the summer of their faith

And the shores so forgot

How much disastrous the river can be

The clock was tickling

The time was passing

Those passing the time

Forgot the speed with which time can pass

The fire was in a pot

Used as a lamp

People getting it's light often

Forgot the burn that fire can cause

People celebrating with swords and knife

Singing the blues

Along with those witnessing the sight

Often were the people who forgot in mind

The cuts and bloods that sword can dry

So am I

So are You

So is everyone who are taken as due

But the sun

The river

The time

The lion

The knives and swords

Never leave anyone in misconception and doubts

So will I

So will you

And those misjudging

Will stand in mid

Neither of sky nor of earth

But of a place made up of

Their sinful works.